I’m having a realization day.
First, let me bring you up to date. In my last post I told you I was heading to Minneapolis to visit my family. It was a wonderful, love-packed trip. I primarily spent time with my Dad and Stepmom–talking, laughing, and helping out with what I could do over the course of a week. I got to see my niece and nephew and their families too, which was a real treat. Hard as it was to leave, it was great to get home to my husband, our pups, and our great life here in Santa Fe. I figured I’d take a couple of days to readjust, do some laundry, then charge ahead with my Etsy store.
Except I brought a bad cold home with me.
So I’ve had a sneezy, wheezy, fevery week. My NOW bubble has been all about taking care of myself, reading and binge-watching Netflix. I’ve puttered at my desk, written a bit, but primarily done low-energy things like cleaning out my email.
One of those emails was an invitation to repeat a class I took last Fall. It was a dynamic, information-bursting course about how to create courses. Though I haven’t talked about it much in this blog, teaching is something I plan to start doing very soon. The material of my nonfiction book, all about living a Radically Radiant life, is begging to be shared in a small-group way that I know will be fun, playful, profound and life-changing for everyone who joins.
When I read this email, I wondered if it would be helpful to take the class again at the reduced price, even though I have the mountain of information I got the first time, including a ton of bonus material I haven’t felt called to look at yet. The studious side of me was nodding yes, because I just plain love classes. The part of me that feels safer having someone else, an authority, okay my ideas was saying yes. But there was something big holding me back from hitting that Buy button. I thought it interesting that this showed up while I was sick and not feeling as clear as I usually do. But even that had purpose, leading me to today’s aha moment, which was:
The biggest and best things in my life show up on their own. I don’t mentally think them up. I don’t go seeking or reaching for…whatever.
And when the right thing shows up at the right time, I know it and act on it. No mental wrangling required.
For example, I never sit down and brainstorm ideas for a novel or poem or blog post. Ideas tumble in on the wind, latch on, and refuse to let go until I write about them. The process and topic of my nonfiction book showed up, unexpectedly and fully formed, in mediation one day. Until that moment, I was positive I’d NEVER write a spiritual nonfiction book. But also in that moment, I knew everything had changed, and I was instantly committed to the new direction.
This is how things flow for me. And that’s okay. More than okay. It’s incredible.
It’s also something I can trust. Today I’m choosing to trust it even more. I’m taking that trust to a new level and listening to the vast part of me that knows I have all the information I need to create my course. When it’s time to begin, I’ll know it with certainty, and I’ll begin. And when I act in alignment, at the right time, the whole of my being, my nonphysical team, my guides and the Universe will be creating right there with me. It doesn’t get any better than that!
Honestly, today’s realization isn’t completely new to me, but it’s a heart-opening, expanded version of realizations I’ve had in the past. And it’s exhilarating and liberating to affirm and choose to go with MY flow, with MY knowing, and not look back or second guess myself.
Flow and knowing are there for us, always. We are in the flow and in our knowing, always. Even when our attention drifts off or gets dampened (by things like a cold), we can always pull our attention back to where and who we really are. And it always feels like a joyful reunion.
Today my flow prompted me to put off a nap and share with you. So that’s what I’m doing.
In the moment.
Where the juiciest things happen.